A Little Blog For Little Thoughts: October 19 2025: So I did it, I left Nekoweb, and I will be leaving Neocities as well. I realised that I had very little in common with the much younger folks, and decided it was time I stopped acting my shoe size and left. I am sad, it was a nice place, but I just didn't fit in. However, I have joined a couple of women only forums that are much like the old communities of old. Except there are no webrings, no committees and as far as I can tell, no one else is into making websites. Guess I just cannot have it all. Time to pull myself up and get on with it. June 19 2025: I seriously thought about leaving Nekoweb and Neocities. I honestly don't know what to do about it. I feel like I'm a dinosaur wandering on my own, in a land which the hominids have taken over. I am so much older than the people at Neko/Neo. It feels skeevy for me to be looking at the sites made by people young enough to be my great-grandchildren. I know the reason is that I'm in mourning for the communities and the people I used to know, back in the 80's and 90's, before it all went to hell and facebook. The solution would be to create my own community. But there are barely any left of my age still making personal websites. And those that still exist have no guestbooks, as they have been left to be deleted by the host comanies. The domains were registered for a long stint, but the people who built the sites have gone. Either to social media, or to the big web hosting company in the sky. April 5 2025: It's hard to admit to one that one is not, well, one. After struggling with creating a second site at Nekoweb, I had to ask for help. It is odd that the likes of Nekoweb and Neocities has attracted so many "neospicy" people, and yet instructions on how to do things are not spelled out more clearly. The psychiatrist I saw a few years ago agreed that I had Asperger's, but that at my age it wasn't worth trying for a formal diagnosis. And now we're told that we can't call it Asperger's anymore, but autusm. But I'm reluctant to afix that label to myself as I know of people who are more seriously autistic than I am. But I am, I really am. I felt like crying while trying to add another site, simply because I could not understand the instructions. So much was left out. I need absolutely clear and full instructions before I can do anything, or I start flailing around. March 30 2025: Mother's Day and I'm being spoiled! My daughter visited a Japanese store or two in Manchester, and bought me some very cute stuff. Now she andmy husband are cooking dinner, which is a traditional roast, with Yorkshire puddings, the works. I spent some time on the Nekoweb discord, to find out how to synch up a new domain I'd bought, with Nekoweb. I was having a hard time of it, as the tutorial I was following didn't work. But a very helpful chap, JB, was oneline and he walked me through it. And it worked! So now you can get to my site through Pandaheart.uk. Thanks JB!